Have you ever really and truly believed that a door in your life was closed, locked, done? You were SURE you had locked it, and hid the key somewhere in a place you were sure you would forget about. Then one day you wake up, get dressed, go through your current door, thinking that you are doing exactly what you were meant to do and out of nowhere the old swings wide open. So, with no hesitation you run as fast as you can, hoping this is not some cruel trick, and the opportunity of reentering this world you were sure was lost is real and not just a dream. You fear that if you show too much excitement someone will come along and say "Oh wait, oops, I was just kidding, my bad." Or worse, you feel since it has been so long and self doubt starts to creep in and tell you that you no longer have what it takes, that very soon someone will figure out that you are indeed a fraud and cannot handle walking this path.
Why am I asking this now? At 10:39 on Thursday night. No real reason. Just wondering......
“I Was Just Kidding”
2 weeks ago